As I start this diary to record my feelings on recent events, I must first start by looking inside. I am a Life Path number 1. A type A personality and a bit of a workaholic and definitely not lazy. I will avoid that which I do not understand and have real difficulty asking for help.

I am a firm believer in "there is no I in Team". Work with me and the results will be astounding. Work against me and you will meet the "bull in the china shop".

Recent events have caused me to re-evaluate my life and goals. My partner decided that he wants his cake and to eat it to. This does not sit well with me. It has absolutely floored me that he has no respect for me. My friend also shows she has no respect for me. Choosing to follow her heart means she is stomping on my friendship, stomping on my feelings and stealing that which is mine.

I am at a cross roads.

Fight for what I have... do not loose sight of my goal (a house, a partner, financial freedom after being oppressed for so long).

Or step aside. Give in. Kick him to the curb. Start all over again. Rely solely on myself. Do not let another person in who could do me harm.

Option 1 will be a hard fight. Option 2 could turn out to be drastic.

Self-preservation must happen. I must be happy again.

I loved you unconditionally ~ Katy Perry
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